I’m back working as a meat processor while I look for other employment. it’s not ideal but the people are lovely like you wouldn’t believe.
still trying to find my rhythm and getting used to day-shift hours.
it’s hard finding time for the gym when I’m not too tired! I love getting your messages though :)
fast & fierce (but don’t underestimate it!)
10 rounds for time:
10 x box jumps
10 x double unders
would you like a random visitor this weekend??? if you're home of course =)
I know who you are… (at least I think I do) I’m working Sunday. but ummm… perhaps contact me not anonymously?
a good good day today. but I need to learn to take things slower. don’t rush. things never got this way overnight, I can’t expect them to heal overnight either. progress will happen. but there is no shame in recognizing limits. in resting when I need rest. and in leaving when I need to leave. being alone doesn’t need to mean lonely. but goodness am I ever thankful for the beautiful friends who are a blessing in all seasons of my life.
so uh….just casually deadlifted 77.5kg yesterday morning ;)
(previous personal best was 50kg)
guess who got brave and actually left the house? not only that but felt cute and spent the evening with a boy? it’s almost midnight & I’ve got a 5am start tomorrow, but things are looking up for this girl!
this mornings workout:
15 min max deadman burpees
= 164 (previous attempt 158)
baby steps. baby steps.
a) continue working out (in a healthy manner). exercise is good for the body and soul.
b) bed is an enabler and naps are only avoidance, sleep isn’t solving anything. once I am up I need to make a real effort to get through my day without going back to bed.
c) don’t shut people out.
p.s. here’s a happy day photo from one of my favourite times adventuring
- 100 x 180 touchdowns
- 100 x reverse lunge (with forward kick)
- 100 x plie squats
- 100 x power squats
- 100 x log jumps
This morning’s workout
I’ve never rowed over 1000m before and I seriously doubted I was mentally or physically capable of completing that challenge. I am insanely proud, but my entire body kills! (oh it feels so good)
you okay babe?
right now, this very moment, I’m not. I’m not okay. I don’t know which way is up. I’m constantly anxious and can’t get comfortable in my own skin. I’m battling thoughts I’d long since forgotten existed. all of my foundations have been rattled and I’m just trying to find my footing. I’m lost.
but that isn’t a bad thing. I’ve been here before. I’m a fighter. sometimes it takes loosing yourself to find yourself. there will be growth. there will be healing. there will be joy. this is only temporary. my head hurts, my heart hurts and I am always so so tired. but light will come again. this life is beautiful despite the brokenness and I will always believe that, even when I no longer feel it.