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It doesn’t interest me what you do for a living, I want to know what you ache for. It doesn’t interest me how old you are, I want to know if you are willing to risk looking like a fool for love, for your dreams, for the adventure of being alive. I want to know if you can live with failure, yours and mine. It doesn’t interest me where you live or how rich you are, I want to know if you can get up after a night of grief and despair, weary and bruised to the bone, and be sweet to the ones you love. I want to know if you can be alone with yourself and truly like the company you keep in the empty moments of your life.
-Oriah Mountain Dreamer  (via elauxe)

It’s been almost three weeks. In this time I have cried my way though almost two boxes of tissues, surrendered control of my life to the hands of strangers, been denied the right to shave my legs or leave the ward and been forced to shower with the door open.
I feel like a paper-hearted girl. I’m under 24hour observation. The smallest of things cause me to break. My short term memory is failing from the many medications, but despite the trials I have been shown such unconditional love and kindness, I’m beginning to learn that I am not alone.

Hey I don't really have the money to post you anything write now but I'd just like to say something. You are amazing and strong just for even accepting you need recovery let alone staying in hospital. I'm so proud of you for making it through each day and I know others are too. You probably don't here this enough but you are beautiful and I hope that you're doing okay. Stay strong lovely xx

from Anonymous


Thank you!

Thinking of & praying for you lovely girl. Sending much love from the other side of the world x x x

from Anonymous


Xx

I don’t usually ask for favours but I’m especially struggling at the moment. I’m in hospital receiving treatment for severe depression and It would mean the world to me if any of you would be kind enough to send me mail and help lift my spirits. I can even promise to write back!!
 Rachel Gorniot
Ward 21
Palmerston north hospital
Private bag 11036
Palmerston north.

New Zealand

Just a short post explaining my absence, I was on holiday having the most incredible time and when I returned I was made inpatient in the mental ward. Hence the lack of posting sorry

an update of sorts

I’m sorry I’ve been kinda absent lately.
I’ve made a lot of posts, only to delete them.
The depression has worsened. and for reasons I won’t discuss publicly I’ve just been switched to a new medication in the hopes it makes a difference.
I’m too tired to workout at the moment, I’m barely functioning.

I’m losing it completely. I was a fairy princess at a 6th birthday party today and got to spend a few hours with one of my dearest friends going through a rough time.I also was rendered totally unable to speak and had another friend cancel on plans to see me. ‘If’ becomes ‘when’ and I am so afraid and alone.

I’m losing it completely. I was a fairy princess at a 6th birthday party today and got to spend a few hours with one of my dearest friends going through a rough time.
I also was rendered totally unable to speak and had another friend cancel on plans to see me. ‘If’ becomes ‘when’ and I am so afraid and alone.

waaaaaaaah your hair is amazing!!! you look HOT ;)

from Anonymous


thanks lovely! It was such a fun experience

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